Got To Get Over My Weekend Mentality!

Today's Weight- 212.5 (Up 0.4)

Actually, being up only four-tenths of a pound is not too bad, considering the weekend I had!!  McDonald's cheeseburger, fries, Coke, cake yesterday at Addy's party!  Tin Drum, Chick-Fil-A Fries!!  Ugh!  I've got to stop this take-the-weekend-off mindset I've developed over the years that I've tried losing weight.  

However, I am thankful that I held as much ground as I did - still down 15 pounds!  But just think of how much more I might be down if I hadn't been bad!!

Down A Little More...!

Today's Weight - 212.1 (Down 0.4)

Nice to be down a little more!  I was afraid that my late-night snack attack might have cost me.  I had a cereal bar and some mandarin oranges (and, of course, coffee!) for breakfast, a Chick-Fil-A chargrilled chicken sandwich for lunch, and a Lean Cuisine french bread pepperoni pizza for supper, and that wasn't until about 8pm!  Then about 10:30 or 11, I was HUNGRY!!  I should have gone to bed, but instead, I made a bag of "healthy" popcorn, and had a glass of sweet tea!!!  At least I resisted the urge to go to McDonalds and get a Big Mac, fries, and a coke!!  

 

Miraculous!

Today's Weight - 212.5 (Down 0.2)

After eating dinner out at Mambo Jambo!!!, it is nothing short of miraculous that my weight is not only not up two or three pounds, but it's actually down!!!!  So now I have lost 15 pounds!  I did fine yesterday, until dinner (except that I didn't exercise), and I guess at dinner, I did better than I used to do.  I drank only water (I really wanted a mojito!!), and had fish with a lemon-caper sauce - and a couple of small pieces of fried plantain.  Oh, and garlic bread before dinner and tastes of everyone else's food!!  Not great, but it certainly could have been worse.  I was so full!!!  It was delicious!!  And I'm not any heavier today!!! 

YAY!!!!!!

Today's Weight - 212.7 (Down 2.3)

OOOHHHH  YEEEAAAHHH!  I did feel better yesterday after getting out and getting some exercise!!!  And I ate dinner before six!  And I lost 2.3 pounds!!!!!!!  YAY!!!!  My new low!!  IT FEELS SO GOOD!!!!

Kinda Bored....

Today's Weight - 215.0 (No Change)

Just starting to feel a little apathetic....  I need to get out and exercise!  I know I will feel better then!  I already feel better just thinking about it!  Just now eating breakfast (at 11:09am), although I had a cup of coffee before taking the kids to school.  Breakfast (which will also serve as lunch) is a deli ham sandwich on whole-grain bread, with dill pickle and a tsp of olive oil mayonnaise, with ice water and another cup of coffee.  I will plan to snack on some fruit if I get hungry in the afternoon, and then have another sandwich or a meal bar for early dinner (no later than 5:45pm), and fix frozen pizza for the kids!  If I exercise, that should end up being a good day!  :)

Wahoo!!!

Today's Weight - 215.0 (Down 2.2)

Yay!!  A new low, and only 7.5 pounds to go til I reach my next ten and get my haircut!!  It feels so good!!  Yesterday, I had a "diet" bar for breakfast, with coffee and water, and for lunch I met Joy and kids at Genghis Grill for her birthday!!  That was aLOT of food, and although I ate only a little more than half my bowl I was very full.  In fact it did me for the rest of the day!  I had a diet coke with lunch, and water the remainder of the day.  No exercise yesterday;  got to fit that in today.  Yay!  What a great start to my week!!

UNBELIEVABLE!!!!!!!

Today's Weight - 217.2 (No Change)

Incredible!!!  I cannot believe I didn't gain a TON of weight over this weekend!!!  I was so bad.  So I am very encouraged about this week, even if the weather does return to winter.  Spring is still only a few weeks away, and I'm not nearly as "backslidden" as I feared I would be.  I was prepared to be back up over 220.  I ate a ton of potato chips with dip, a piece of strawberry cake, the remains of the fudge, Friday's!  two rum & cokes and half a beer, cokes, tea, Longhorn!!!!!  Now you see why it's so unbelievable that I stayed the same weight!!

So today, back to work!  And I'm glad to be where I am!

>:| Disgusted!

Today's Weight - 217.2 (Up 0.9)

I'm so disgusted with how ridiculous it is to be good all day, then eat just a little too much too late, and the next day, I've gained weight back.  I walked more than three miles yesterday (and the day before), and did great at eating - until dinner, which was too late, and again, I had a second serving I shouldn't have had, and snacked on the chicken that was ready while I was waiting on the other food to get ready.  Ahh, I also had some chips and salsa - forgot about that.  Well, ok.  I guess it's back to eating before 6pm, no matter what everybody else does.  I will try to do that over the weekend and see how it goes. Grrrrrrrr.

:p

Today's Weight - 216.3 (Up 0.7)

Well, I figured it might be up some, because I ate too much at dinner, and it was late.  I fixed salmon in this delicious salsa, that I had tried at Publix, and it was SO good!  I had a small second serving, plus I "tasted" quite a bit before it was all ready.  I had cereal with skim milk for breakfast, a Subway sandwich WITH Lay's Baked BBQ chips for lunch, and snacked on few pretzels in between lunch and dinner.  Drank water, coffee, and Coke Zero.  Also walked three miles at Central Park with Joy and Joanna.  So, today I must keep up the exercise, and eat better.

Moving In The Right Direction!

Today's Weight - 215.6 (Down 0.9)

Yay!  I've hit a new "low"!  Now I'm almost two pounds into my next "ten"!  Yesterday I worked out for about 40 minutes on the Wii, and I had two cups of coffee, a sandwich, and two boiled eggs.  I should have eaten again, but I wasn't hungry, so I didn't (which made sense).  But last night I didn't feel very good, and I did not sleep well!!   I had my second cup of coffee around 5:30, and it seemed to keep me awake, and make me feel shaky.  So I think I will eat more regular meals today.  Plus I should be able to go to the grocery store and get FOOD for DINNER!!!  Hooray!

Off to wake up the kids, make coffee, and begin another great day!  :)

OH YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today's Weight - 216.5 (Down 2.4!!!!!)

YES!!!!!  I am so excited!  Yesterday was a GREAT day!!!  It was beautiful and sunny, and warm!!!!  Joy and the kids and I walked four miles on the greenway, and it felt SO good!  We ran short distances two or three times, we got some sun, and it was so nice to be outside!!  

All I ate yesterday was a big piece of cake in the morning (Julie's strawberry birthday cake) and Subway for an early dinner.  One cup of coffee in the morning, and water the rest of the day (a little diet coke for dinner).  So I know I can't do that every day.  Yesterday it was fine.  And SOOO gratifying to be down that much!!  Now I only have 0.4 pounds more to go before I'm back at my "low", and I'm already a pound down on my next "ten", so nine more to go til I get my haircut!!  WoooHOOOO!!!!!!

Spring Is Coming...!

Today's Weight - 218.9 (Up 0.9)

Disappointing.  But shouldn't be surprising, as I had fudge, potato chips, and probably ate a little too much several times over the weekend!  So actually, I am thankful that it didn't go any higher.  I would be SO upset if I was back up in the 20's!!

So time to step up the pace today, and hit a new low this week!  :)

Maintaining...

Today's Weight - 218.0 (No Change)

I didn't lose any since yesterday, but neither did I gain any!  I'm off for the weekend, see you on Monday! :)

Nice Start To A Nice Weekend!

Today's Weight - 218.0 (Down 0.5)

Hooray!  Down another 0.5 pounds!  Now I have only another 1.9 to lose to catch up to my "low", which I reached back on Jan. 25, and only half a pound to reclaim my first ten down.  Slow progress, I know, but the key word here is progress!
I might have lost more if I had followed the plan I had as of my last post, but alas... I did not.  I did wait until the kids got home, but we went first to the grocery store - actually, first we went by Chick-Fil-A, where I got the kids a snack, and me a small cup of fruit and a water.  And those fruit cups are small.  I started making dinner as soon as we got home, but it was seven before it was ready and we could finally eat.  I made spaghetti - plain sauce for the kids and veggie sauce for the adults.  (Homemade, not jarred).  I had only a very small serving of pasta (about the same size as Ella's!) with more veggie sauce, and I used a small plate and had only one serving.  So I am thankful that I still went down instead of up!  :)  I really want to eat earlier, and only have water after 6 or 6:30, as a general rule. 

Adding Some Strength Training

I just did 30 crunches, 30 scissor-kicks (thirty doubles, not fifteen doubles), and 30 leg lifts each side.  Proceeded to to 15 push-ups (how sad, push-ups used to be my favorite, and I was quite good at them!) and 30 jumping jacks and 30 squats.  I know those numbers are low, but for me, coming from doing NOTHING!, they are a good place to start.  I will increase reps as I get better.  Already I'm up to 30 from my previous 25 a couple of days ago, and I did add the push-ups, even if it was only 15 (and they were pretty shallow!).  I will look forward to reporting better numbers in the next few weeks...  :)
For breakfast I had a bowl of Quaker Oat Squares with milk, coffee, and water.  I had a snack around 11:30 of dried apricots, and haven't needed lunch yet.  I'll probably wait 'til the kids get home, and make it an early dinner!

Another Beautiful Day!

Today's Weight - 218.5 (Down 0.6) 
Yay, down another 0.6 pound(s) today!  Now I only have one pound to (re)lose to get back to where I can begin on the second ten.  And it is beautiful outside!  It's not beautiful as in gorgeous, warm, spring or summer weather, but there is snow on the ground and all over the trees, and the sunrise is painting it all a very pretty array of pastel colors.  AND it's supposed to be WARM again this weekend!  Close to 70 by Sunday!  YAY!!!

Satisfying! :)

Today's Weight - 219.1 (Down 1.1)

Good results are more satisfying than eating junky food!  I was down 1.1 pound this morning - back under 220, and now only three pounds to lose to get back where I was before!  (Grrrr).  That's better than the more-than-four I had to lose as of yesterday.  I forgot to add, last night, that in addition to walking and running the stairs, I also did 25 each of crunches, scissor kicks, and leg lefts (25 each side).  I know, 25 is pretty gimpy, but so am I (at the moment).  It was so surprising (not in a good way) how difficult it was to finish 25!!  when I used to do 100 reps easily!  So as I (re)build more muscle tone, I will increase repititions.  I didn't even try push-ups last night!!  I'll add them maybe today.
Enjoying my morning coffee, getting ready to take the kids to school, and anticipating another great day!  Thank you, Lord!

Glad To Be Back!

For lunch, I had a deli turkey sandwich on whole-grain bread with a tsp of olive oil mayo, and ice water.  I had a snack in the mid-afternoon of a small fruit cup from Chick-Fil-A, and for dinner, some fresh steamed broccoli and some of Julie & Phil's grass-fed steak.  Delicious!  Also, I went to Central Park with Joy and kids and we walked two miles, and ran down and up the stairs twice.  It feels good to be going in the right direction again!  :)

Fresh Air!

*deep breath of fresh air*  Well, it is nice to be back!  It's nice to breathe again.  I've got to look back and see when my nosedive started, and see how long I kept spiraling toward the ground before pulling up.  I do like roller coasters, but I'm getting really tired of this one - the one that is my life when I live by sight and not by faith.  Or when I'm premenstrual or menopausal, whichever this is.  This plummet wasn't begun by any event, and neither was my pulling out of it.  So I'm trying to figure out what physical factor, if any, plays a part in my ups and downs.  Cycle?  Diet?   It is really frustrating - when I am covered up in my little cloud of despondency I am of absolutely no use to myself, my family, or society in general, not to mention my Father.

I am up 4.1 pounds from my "low" of 216.1 (I know - sad, right?  That 216.1 would be a "low" for anybody!!  But it's better than where I started, and it's better even than where I am right now).  So I have some recovery to make before I can progress.  Charming Charlies is just waiting... with all that gorgeous turquoise and royal blue and pink and yellow and orange - colors of summer at the beach!   And I want to get to that next level, and compare measurements and photos with the ones I already have.  Plus I get a haircut when I reach the next "10" - but now I have 12.7 pounds to lose before I get there, to make up for what I've gained back since losing the first ten.  (I lost 1.4 pounds more after the first ten, before I started going in the wrong direction).

So today, I am starting out by avoiding the cinnamon rolls I made for the kids' breakfast, and having a bowl of somewhat-healthy cereal instead, with my usual cup (or two) of coffee, and water.  Over the weekend, I drank Cokes, and sweet tea, and ate all kinds of fattening things.  And it didn't make me feel any better!  It just made me fatter!  Which actually made me feel worse.  I don't know if the relatively small amount I've lost made any difference, but I did sleep better than I have the past several nights, when I was eating right.  That is more powerful motivation than Charming Charlies.  And the fact that I'm being a terrible steward with all God has blessed me with, by letting myself get heavier and unhealthier.  That should motivate me the most, and if it doesn't, I need to re-evaluate my priorities.  All of my fears for the future (that definitely play a part in my depression) can be laid to rest when I am living in obedience to God.  He has always taken care of me!  Why should I doubt Him?  He is always faithful, never changing.  Very unlike people.  I want to be more like Him.  I want to be faithful, and unchanging (at least as far as a mortal body can be - I mean, I am getting older - nothing I can do about that!).  So I'm going to seek His help, and (try to) live in the light of His countenance, and He will help.  I can't do it without Him.

Ugghhh

Today's Weight - 220.2 (Up 1.1)

I am SO tired of this black cloud!  Today is Tuesday, and I have been bad all weekend.  I was up again on Saturday morning, and then the rest of the weekend and Monday were just out the window.  So this morning I was up another 0.7 pounds (I didn't get on the Wii again since Saturday, until today).  So that's a total weight gain of a pound over my foodfest weekend.

Day Thirty-one...

Today's Weight - 219.1 (Down 0.3)

Down another 0.2 pounds this morning.  I am grudgingly trying to behave today, but I'm not all that excited about it.  It's just a little easier, since I went to the grocery store and bought some food that I can eat without feeling guilty.  Not that I've been suffering much guilt - just food that I can eat and still possess some hope of continuing to lose some weight, albeit a very little bit at a time.

Relief!

Today's Weight - 219.4 (Down 1.1)

Yay!  Down 1.1 pounds!  More later...

Shaky...

Today's Weight - 220.5 (Up 0.7)

Not too great for supposedly being back on the wagon.  The only meal I behaved at yesterday was lunch.  I did control my between-meal snacking.   But I made lasagna for dinner, and of course I ate too much, and too late.  To complete my failure, I also drank sweet tea.  So this morning I was up another 0.7 pounds.
But still, my two favorite pairs of pants are literally falling off me, and I can now wear the jeans I couldn't before.  So my work hasn't been rendered entirely fruitless.  And it should be encouraging enough to keep me going.  I'm going to try again today.  I just hate feeling so sluggish.  I get out of bed and I feel blah!  During the three weeks that I was doing well, I got out of bed excited to begin the day!  This is just ridiculous.  Stop it!

Hello again!

Today's Weight 219.8 (Up 2.4)

Well, my miserable little vacation is over, and I'm back.  I don't know if it has anything to do with my cycle (which is so unpredictable now in my old age!) or not, but I fell back into despair, and just quit trying to do anything.  But how stupid and senseless!  That stretch (that I've recorded on here thus far) is the longest stretch of "feeling good" and hopefulness I've had in a long time.  Why would I give that up?  I won't!!  I refuse to just lay here and let this gloomy cloud of misery cover me up again.  So here I am, and by the grace of God, I will persevere.  I want to run the race with endurance!!  Not lay down in defeat!  

Yesterday morning (Monday), I got on the Wii and my weight was up 1.1 pounds.  And I ate and drank just whatever I wanted yesterday.  (I didn't feel good).  And again today, I was up another 1.3 pounds!!  And then I ate three cinammon rolls (which I had made for the kids' breakfast).  

But starting now, I want to get back to drinking water, eating healthy, and caring.  It's good stewardship.  And the older I get, the less I can afford to be a poor steward with the life and health God has given me.  Actually, I could never "afford" it.  So I'm running after that wagon, and I'm going to get back in.